It’s been a heck of a month. Been working very long hours to get the last of my work shipped out for the holidays. It’s been rough, but I am done working the “overtime” now.
Christmas is a strange time for me. I try to find the happiness and joy that everyone else seems to have, and what all the media proclaims we should have. I really struggle. I put on a happy face and go to the parties, but I most often wish I were home alone. Which is weird because when I spend an extended time alone, I long for human contact. I think I am crazy.
So today I am struggling to get the tree up. It’s artificial and easy enough to put up, but I just don’t feel like it. And the kids have no interest. Sigh. And that’s probably my fault. Because I am so busy working up until just before Christmas, I have no time to decorate….and no one else wants to decorate either. I don’t know. I used to deck the house out. Then things got in the way. And the kids got older and lost interest in helping. And I don’t want to do it alone.
*sigh*
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