atf 2

So I go to get mt stitches out today.  Things look to be healing nicely.  I am little nervous about getting them out….will it hurt?  I have no idea.  Joe says probably not.  I guess I will find out.

Still get very tired.  I hope to get some of my old energy back soon.  And I miss walking.  The weather has been so nice, and I have been staying in.  *sigh*  Maybe I’ll take a short walk this weekend.  W/o dogs.  Youngest says I’m never allowed to walk again.  LOL.

All in all I am recovering.  Just taking things slowly and resting often.  I never really felt old, until I fell.  Now I feel my, almost, 49 years.

No plans for this holiday weekend.  We were invited to go to camp with Joe’s family, but I declined.  I’d rather just stay at home and relax, and maybe start some yard work.  The weeds are taking over, since it has rained just about every day for months.  I’d like to get things looking decent again.

Just rambling now it seems.  Guess I’ll get myself cleaned up and head to the hospital…

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atf – after the fall

So most of the swelling is gone now, but the right side of my face is a funny shade of yellowish green.  And I still have a couple purple bruises and, of courses, the 50 stitches.  I should clarify, that you can see 30 of the teeny tiny stitches, and 20 are underneath the 30.  Everything is healing well, and still no pain.  I’ll have the stitches removed either thursday or friday.

The lady at the Eye Dr’s office was able to straighten out my flat glasses enough that I can wear them until the new ones come in.  Yay.  Having to try and focus through glasses that are over 4 years old was tiring in itself.

All in all, I feel pretty good.   No pain at all.  I am very tired, and rest often.  I am getting things done.  Slowly.  There is no fast speed for me right now.  I just do what I can, for as long as I can, then I stop.  Each day I am able to go a little longer, so things are looking up.

Youngest is very concerned about me.  No child should see their mother covered in blood.  Every day I catch her looking at my stitches and she is always asking how I feel.  I know this really shook her up, but she is handling it well.

As for me, I want to, but still haven’t cried.  I’ll catch myself starting to well up, then I stop myself and get on with things.  Not sure if I am just trying to be strong, or maybe I’m afraid the tears will burn the cut at the corner of my eye.  I don’t know….I just keep on going.

Joe has been good about everything.  Driving me to the eye dr’s monday, because my vision was still blurry with the old glasses.  He did all the laundry on sunday.  I’m not an invalid, but it’s nice to have someone take care of me for a change.

And that’s my update for now.  I have to work for a little while, while I still have some energy.

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in a nutshell

Yesterday I took both dogs for a walk.  A quarter mile from home, they tripped me up and I did a face plant on the road.  I had a leash in each hand, and I could not brace myself.  I landed on the right side of my face.

There was blood pouring from my head.  Luckily I did not leave my cell phone at home, so I called Youngest and told her to get the neighbors and come and get me.  Joe is in Canada fishing, and Oldest is on her way to Florida.

They came and got me, Deb the neighbor is a retired RN, so she cleaned me up and then took me to the ER.  After 5 hours in the ER, a few CT scans, and 50 stitches, I was finally sent home.

I look like shit, and my glasses are flat (thank goodness I had an old pair in a drawer), but my face does NOT hurt.  Not at all.  I have various scrapes and bruises that hurt, and my body aches.  But my 3 major lacerations don’t hurt a bit.  It’s crazy.  If I didn’t  ever look in a mirror, I wouldn’t know I was hurt.  Okay, my right eye is swollen shut a little….but otherwise…..

As Youngest says, I looked like one of those characters in a horror movie who cover their face with their hand, but the blood is pouring out anyway.  Literally, that was me.  But I am feeling okay today, just a little tired.

And that was my thursday afternoon.  How was yours?

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just after sunset

So I lay on the couch in the evening watching tv.  It will get to be about 9:45pm and my eyes start closing.  My blinks get longer.  And I find myself waking up 5 minutes later, missing an important scene in whatever show I am watching.  So I say screw it, and I decide to go to bed.

I lock the doors, feed the cat….go through my nightly routine and climb into bed.  And promptly lay there wide awake.  My mind racing around a billion different things.  I can’t get comfortable.  I have a hot flash.  Too hot.  Then too cold.  Argh.  All I want to do is go to sleep.  I think I may just start watching tv in  my jammies, so I can sleep on the couch.

Anyway….I just finished Stephen King’s Just After Sunset, a collection of short stories.  Holy cow, if you like Stephen King, you must read these stories.  They are classic Stephen King.  I haven’t enjoyed a book so much in a long time.  And especially the last story in the book.  I almost didn’t want to keep reading it, but couldn’t stop.  Classic, I tell ya.

And now I am going to try and relax and go to bed…..we’ll see how it works tonight.

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rambling about

The past few days have not been good food days.  Or not healthy food days.  That’s probably be a better way to say it.  I have to get back on track.  Argh.

At my age, with my metabolism now, any veer off the straight and narrow results in weight gain : (  How I long for the days of my youth when I could eat any and everything I wanted.  *sigh*

At the very least I am getting the dogs out for walks 4-5 times a week for 20-40 minutes, depending on the weather.  Haven’t quite made the 3 mile loop that takes an hour, but if you saw my dogs out walking, you’d know why.  I can only pull big dog back for so long, and then she pants like she is dying as soon as we leave the house.

Oldest is supposedly packing up her belongings up at school.  I went up and helped on sunday, but she does not want anymore help.  We are lucky that her school is about 60 minutes away, and we can pack and bring things home when we want.

I’m anxious to see if she gets everything packed by the time we go up tomorrow night for baccalaureate.  She’s an adult now, so if she wants to do it herself, be my guest.  I have other stuff I can do.

I am tired this morning.  Yesterday too.  Not sure if it is allergies, the allergy med (zyrtec) or a sinus infection resulting from allergies.  Yes, my head is stuffy.  I don’t know, I’m feeling old.  And when I look in the mirror, I am looking old too.  But that’s a whole other post.  Time to get a shower and get the day started.

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quick update

The weather is finally warming up here.  Can we say hallelujah?  But yesterday I spent the day in a funk.

As usual, I have too much stuff on my plate and it is stressing me out.  I am trying to delegate things where I can, and ask for help where I need it, and just say no, where I know I can’t handle anything else.

Today there are no extracurricular activities to take care of, so I can just work.  And color my hair.  And walk the dogs.  Maybe even scoop poop, but that might be pushing it.

Oldest graduates from college this weekend, and we are busy moving her stuff home.  Youngest has softball games and cello lesson this week, so off we go to those.  But at least is not raining.

I can’t wait for vacation in July.  It is the only thing that keeps me going through all of this chaos…..sun, sand and ocean.  I can’t wait.

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